Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself
This post really resonated with me.
By Tamara Rant, Conscious Life News
We’ve all hit tough times at some point in our lives, but hopefully everyone reading this also has some amazing memories as well.
While life is full of ups and downs and what we could label as “positive” or “negative” experiences, how we perceive those experiences and what we do with what we learn from those experiences, is how we ultimately become Spiritual Alchemists over our own lives.
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Made me cry but good tears at the end
To me, if you want to forgive anyone the easiest way there is by understanding them. But what if you didn’t really know them yet their existence had an effect on you. In my case I am trying to understand a grandparent who committed incest with his daughter (my mom) over the span of her childhood. I would really like to understand what caused his behaviour so I can drop my anger towards him. He’s been dead a long time but his actions influenced my upbringing since my mother sexually abused me too (primarily covert abuse). I have released 99% of the anger towards my mom but I have not released any toward the grandfather.
How does one go about understanding someone you never knew? At this rate I am not going to be able to forgive him at all. My heart is not that generous.
©Natalya Lyubov, Reflections On Life Thus Far, 2016.
If you haven’t read my previous posts this might not make much sense to you but I had computer trouble awhile back and posted about it on here. After putting Windows 7 on my old laptop running Vista I found I couldn’t get my Windows Updates. I pretty much thought my instillation job had gone wrong or something since I had never installed an operating system on a computer before. The Windows 7 I obtained was an OEM (original equipment manufacturer) copy because that’s what is easiest to purchase these days. It’s very difficult to find a retail copy of Windows 7 unless you go on eBay or Amazon but then you don’t always know how authentic the copy you’re getting is. So I got a genuine OEM copy and put it on my laptop that was running Vista.
Long story short, I managed to finally get my updates! Not sure how or what I did but I don’t care. The point is I got them. They took 2 days to install because I had 230+ updates to install. Fortunately I have another computer so used that whilst waiting on my backlog of updates. For awhile I thought the updates were not working because no progress bar was being displayed, just an annoying continuous updating message. So I left my computer alone for a day and a half then realised it had been installing 162 updates! When I saw that I was so shocked I barely registered the relief passing through me. I’d been thinking nothing was happening then I saw how many updates installed and it was just fantastic.
So I eagerly updated the remaining 70+ updates after the 162. My computer kept having to restart for the updates to take effect but I didn’t care. I am just so grateful the updates finally arrived. If I didn’t want Windows 10 for free it would not have mattered if I got my updates or not but I wanted my FREE operating system after paying for Windows 7, LOL! For anyone unaware of the offer if you have Windows 7, 8 or 8.1 you can upgrade to 10 for FREE. You get the same version as whatever your OS is. Mine was Home Premium so I got Windows 10 Home Premium. If you had Ultimate or Business or whatever you’d get that version for free. You do have to meet certain technical requirements but they aren’t that difficult to meet provided your computer is decent (yes, I know decent is open to interpretation) and you get Windows Updates.
To summerise: I’m happy hehe
©Natalya Lyubov, ReflectionsOnLifeThusFar, 2016.
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I decided to pretend I was smart and upgrade my Vista OS to Windows 7. Don’t worry, I bought a legitimate (legal) copy for instillation. Thinking I’d refurbish my own 2008 laptop I got the OEM version (usually made for manufacturers and the easiest to obtain these days) and did a custom install instead of being reasonable and doing the upgrade. This meant following a bunch of instructions that were simple enough but overwhelming to my computer novice brain. I managed to correctly download my Windows 7 OEM onto DVD and the tool for helping with it but it took me a couple attempts since I always manage to make things hard for myself like that.
Several hours later I had the new OS on my laptop and Vista was history. Too bad it wasn’t done there because I realised I’d deleted some things and had to go online to find them again so my laptop would function properly. As I am not in anyway an IT person it took me a lot of detective work to figure out how to find out what issues I had. Suddenly I found myself looking on my hard drives (I have 2) for clues and seeing just how confused I was.
Let me suggest for anyone like myself (non IT person) you really do all your research BEFORE deciding to change your OS! I am not super impulsive but I can get it into my head that I will be spontaneous and figure out what I need to along the way; which is what I did and why I got myself into the mess I am not totally out of yet. My computer works just well enough to make me think I did alright (after downloading plenty of drivers from my laptop’s manufacturer website)-except it is taking forever to update (Windows Update) and I can’t even update other stuff like my browser so my web searches are sh*t and I can only read my e-mail in HTML instead of the usual rich text format I’m used to.
But I did manage to improve my computer’s performance to what it was BEFORE I installed Windows 7! Which is actually good because I initially had a LOWER rating but found the right stuff online to fix it and it’s as good as when I had Vista, LOL😛 Ironically, I bought Windows 7 for better performance and to continue getting security updates from Microsoft and browser updates for Chrome. Chrome was going to quit updates for Vista in April ’16 and MS is quitting security fixes for Vista by 2017.
In case you’re wondering I have another computer that works just fine and I am using that right now but I didn’t want my old one to end up as an expensive paperweight if I could help it. So I bought the downloadable Windows 7 OEM from Software King (they’re BBB reputable with an A+) and got my necessary stuff. The product key was good and I DO recommend them if you want a good deal on software. Software Empire is cheaper but they have an F with the BBB. So don’t buy from them.
I am really grateful I have another computer because my old one is slower than a snail! That is AFTER I improved its performance enough to be able to have the transparent window and not have it use all my laptop’s processor resources. Prior to that I had to use the old window to preserve resources (I’m referring to the personalisation features in Windows 7 where you select a ‘look’/theme for your desktop, task bar, and startup menu, etc.). There is an old style theme that uses much less of your computer’s resources if you’re struggling with a sluggish computer.
Anyway, I hope to figure out the Windows Update issue. So far I have done everything I can think of including help from online so I will just wait and hope my laptop updates itself if I wait long enough (I have the updater running now but it isn’t telling me anything yet).
Yes, I know this is not my usual post style but I needed to get my frustration out about my laptop.
©Natalya for Reflections On Life Thus Far, 2016.
A couple of sweet Maltese puppies to warm your heart on a Sunday