Today went well; aside from a pigeon pooping on my head but it came out so could have been worse! We lost
two people from our confidence group but they will be back for the final session next week-I think. Today’s confidence lessons weren’t really all that eye opening but I appreciated the discovery other people have a difficult time asserting themselves too. That was one of the main things we discussed, assertiveness and styles of communication. It was already clear to me I have a mainly passive communication style, although I have been getting more assertive gradually. The other types of communication are aggressive, passive-aggressive and assertive. According to the quiz we took I am inconsistently assertive-tell me something I don’t know! LOL The good news is it’s ‘fixable’. The bad news is I have to practice being assertive. I’d rather avoid confrontation but am sort of sick of being mistreated so am willing to push myself to get out of my comfort zone of passivity and enter assertiveness’s zone.
For ‘homework’ we’re supposed to work on something we scored low in on our confidence assessment quiz. Mine is to do more activity because I tend not to do much beyond blogging and being on my computer. So I am going to try and find something to do each day I don’t usually do. Today I talked to a woman from our group afterwards for a half hour. Normally I’d have just avoided any conversation but I actually sat down where we were waiting for the bus and we chatted. She’s a fellow Buddhist so I guess I felt more comfortable talking with her. A kindred spirit! Most people take being friendly for granted but when you have social anxiety and confidence issues striking up friendly conversations aren’t easy. It felt nice to talk to a real person! LOL
This isn’t something I really want to do but it is an activity and I mentioned earlier that I am going to find different activities to do this week. Well I am going to make an effort to do some housework because I am rather bad about keeping things clean. I live with my dad because I can’t afford to live on my own due to massive student loan debt and being unemployed. Anyhow, my dad’s a widower and retired and not into cleaning too much either. So if neither of us does anything the place starts to look worse for the wear. Thus, this week I’m going to try to take at least one day and do some cleaning. Remember that I am not Martha Stewart! One day is better than my current record 😛
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