Reflections on Life Thus Far

My life. My story: Exploring mental health, spirituality, meditation & random thoughts I have

Last Confidence Building Session Coming Up Tomorrow


Clinical research shows Buddhist mindfulness t...

Clinical research shows Buddhist mindfulness techniques can help alleviate anxiety , stress , and depression (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I’m feeling a tad let down by tomorrow being my last confidence building session. Not too sure I’m loads more

confident than when I started. I think I have more confidence now than a couple of weeks ago but it’s hard to tell. Perhaps I can work on it on my own time if I find a self help workbook kind of thing. Anyone have experience (successful) with confidence building/increasing workbooks? Or even just self help books on confidence? I think a fellow blogger tried this route but I didn’t get to ask them what the outcome was.

Anyway, I was supposed to have worked on doing meaningful activities all week(for the workshop) but I didn’t really manage it. At best I was able to do several days but certainly not the entire week. I’d planned on getting outdoors but it rained a lot last week and I am not very ‘outdoorsy’ so felt a disinclination toward venturing out. Friday was alright but I just wasted it not managing anything more meaningful than a 40 min. mindfulness meditation which I do regularly anyhow (or try to).

The thought has occurred to me that I’m a bit ‘sluggish’ from the decreased daylight and steady stretch of rain and gray skies we’ve been having here. Every year I develop Seasonal Affective Disorder (S.A.D.) so it might be that, although it isn’t even October yet officially! Normally I think I can make it a bit further than the end of September before the S.A.D. hits. Oh, I don’t know. Hopefully the rain goes away for a little while. I am starting to feel like I’m living on the other side of the country where it typically rains more often than where I’m at. It could be the tropical storm moving up the coast giving us the lousy weather.

Maybe I should find myself a S.A.D. lamp and try that. I hate feeling unmotivated to do anything. Right now I

English: A 30 kHz bright light therapy lamp (I...

English: A 30 kHz bright light therapy lamp (Innosol Rondo) used to treat seasonal affective disorder. Provides 10,000 lux at a distance of 25 cm. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

can blame it on the crap weather but if it is like this when the sun returns I won’t be doing well! Sorry for complaining. Tomorrow I promise my post will be more positive!

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Author: Natalya

Blogging my thoughts and feelings about mostly mental health, meditation and spirituality(non religious). Hoping to connect with other interesting people in the blogosphere. *The name is Russian and is my pseudonym.

5 thoughts on “Last Confidence Building Session Coming Up Tomorrow

  1. I was blue, just as blue as I could be
    Ev’ry day was a cloudy day for me
    Then good luck came a-knocking at my door
    Skies were gray but they’re not gray anymore

    Blue skies
    Smiling at me
    Nothing but blue skies
    Do I see

    Irving Berlin 1926 (abridged lyrics)

  2. Hello, I found that “Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway” really helped me during a period of depression and crisis of confidence. I know it’s an old book and considered quite cheesy but I followed the whole thing – because I had nothing left to lose – and it worked wonders! Especially the life-balance grid and the “I can handle it” affirmation. You can pick up a copy for peanuts second hand so why not give it a go. Pema Chodron’s book “When Things Fall Apart” is also brilliant and helped me during the same period of time. As a fellow SAD sufferer I know this time of year is tricky – it’s like the period from about November to April is a total no-go zone! I am thinking of trying an SAD lamp this year. Good luck – I enjoy your blog btw 🙂

    • Thanks! I’ll have to track down a copy and give it a try 🙂 I’ve read “When Things Fall Apart” but it’s been several years or more since last reading it. Maybe I’ll take another look and see if I get something from it I didn’t before. Thank you 🙂

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