Reflections on Life Thus Far

My life. My story: Exploring mental health, spirituality, meditation & random thoughts I have

Weird Phenomena


Artist: Christopher Cuseo

Alright I guess I might disappoint some here who expected paranormal discussion. Nothing like that. Anyway, yesterday I signed up for a date to take this career decision test thingy. There were different days to sign up and I swear I only chose one but the employment counsellor facilitating the workshop phoned me to tell me I’d signed up for two different dates. Well on my life I don’t remember signing up for a second day on the list of dates available. It’s just so weird. Not being one to argue though I made an uncomfortable self deprecating remark about having had an out of body experience. I don’t think I signed up for that second day. Someone else must have made a mistake yet how someone could write my name in is strange. This makes me feel ultra weird having been prone to dissociation much of my life. I thought I had a pretty good handle on it until that employment counsellor phoned to tell me I’d signed up on two different days. That made me feel very disorientated and doubtful of my own sanity. I don’t like feeling that way! Surely she made a mistake because I know I never wrote my name twice on that sign up sheet. Damn dissociative past makes me feel nuts when stuff like this happens. It’s very disconcerting and unsettling thinking I could have dissociated yet I know I didn’t. I’m convinced the employment counsellor made the mistake. There was a woman after me with the same first name initial who signed up after I did so I think she might have been the one to sign up for that day and the employ. counc. didn’t read it properly! That’s the only explanation I can come up with. I am not dissociating often anymore and know full well I only signed up ONCE! Bah! It is super stressful for me when things like this happen. Not that they happen often-this is the first occasion in ages, but even so it’s not comfortable. I don’t like feeling crazy ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

ยฉReflectionsonlifethusfar, 2012.


Author: Natalya

Blogging my thoughts and feelings about mostly mental health, meditation and spirituality(non religious). Hoping to connect with other interesting people in the blogosphere. *The name is Russian and is my pseudonym.

17 thoughts on “Weird Phenomena

  1. You are NOT crazy, so do not feel that way. ๐Ÿ˜‰

    • Thank you! I needed to have somebody tell me that. ๐Ÿ™‚

      • I had serious issues with dissociation from God know when in early childhood on. I no longer dissociate. I had total (relative) recall of the past 4+ years, whereas the rest of my life, memory-wise, looks like Swiss cheese. Of course, peri-menopause and menopause hit at roughly the same time, so if today I signed myself up for something twice, I’d just shake my head and think nothing of it ๐Ÿ˜‰ I wrote an article on PTSD and memory some time back if you are ever interested. The research and the writing of it helped me a lot.

      • Okay, thanks. I will read that ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. I’m pretty sure you are not crazy. You seem perfectly lucid to me. Please don’t make too much of this unless there are repeat occurrences that are more clear, because this really just sounds like some kind of clerical error or mixup.

    I would go have a nice cup of tea if I were you, and forget all about it. It’s all good. ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. We all do stuff like this! I forget my own children’s names! Please don’t worry yourself x

  4. Sounds so confusing :/

    I often experience situations where I’m sure I have or haven’t done something, but because of my tendency to dissociate, I doubt myself.

    You’re not crazy. Maybe it WAS their mistake, maybe a system error.. Don’t read too much into it – these things happen.

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