Reflections on Life Thus Far

My life. My story: Exploring mental health, spirituality, meditation & random thoughts I have

Portfolio Workshop


Starting in February I’ll be participating in a portfolio development workshop put on by an

Mine is burgundy/wine colour. I wanted something more decorative but only smaller binders had the pretty designs! 😦

employment agency. It’s every Monday for 10 weeks (ends April). All I can think is it’s going to be a lot of work! We were told to buy 5″ binders! I couldn’t find anything bigger than a 3″ binder. Actually, I only ended up getting a 2″ binder b/c the 3″ one looked too big to me. I’ve got to carry the thing around with me on the bus after all. Not exactly keen on hauling a monster size binder around on my person. Next thing I know I’ll be back using my backpack b/c my shoulder bag type purse will be too small.

So what are we doing in this workshop you may be wondering. Well I attended the info session on Monday(21st) and discovered it’s going to be a compilation of everything we’ve done in our life regarding skill acquisition. We’ll also be including a sort of autobiography to begin with on our life from childhood ’til now. Fun! πŸ˜› There’s a group of us (fewer than 10) and we’ll be sharing what we’re comfortable with to the others, as well as handing in writing assignments to the two facilitators.

The process of putting our portfolio together is supposed to build confidence in us if we

Two women walking outside an employment agency.

Two women walking outside an employment agency. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

were under the impression we didn’t have much to show for our lives. In my case, I’m hoping to realize I have more skills than I thought and be able to feel a sense of pride in what I’m capable of. Growing up in a home with a mother who had NPD(Narcissistic Personality Disorder) I rarely was told I was good at anything. Mostly, I was told what my MOM was good at, not me. In fact I could tell you everything my mother was good at but nothing I was good at. It made me feel worthless in comparison and hurt when I realized the only times I was praised were when I’d done really well, even then it was not much. But my mother, she had the biggest ego about her abilities so it was hard to compete with that.

So far I have some things already for my portfolio because I did a much smaller one years ago through another employment agency. But it was not a workshop and it was mostly just a collection of awards and certificates I’d gotten over the years. Still, it’s a good start and saves me looking around for some things anyway.

The only thing I dislike is getting up early to make it there on time. But if I had a job then likely I would have to get up early too. So it’s practice!

Β©Natalya, 2013.


Author: Natalya

Blogging my thoughts and feelings about mostly mental health, meditation and spirituality(non religious). Hoping to connect with other interesting people in the blogosphere. *The name is Russian and is my pseudonym.

12 thoughts on “Portfolio Workshop

  1. I went to something similar and by the end of it I had even bagged an interview and ended up in the job I’m in now. I hope it all goes well! You’ll be surprised what skills you really have from your life πŸ™‚

  2. *giggles* Um… well for one thing you’re a pretty awesome blogger with nearly 8,000 visits in just seven months! You’ve created this blog, post regularly, share with your readers interesting bits of stuff you find, and reply to comments enthusiastically and in a timely manner. Accomplishing this highlights your computer skills including a working knowledge of social media, your ability to communicate effectively in writing, your aptitude for creative projects, and your dedication to follow through. Um… and I don’t know too much about your Zazzle stuff… but hello, I’m guessing I could write another paragraph about the super skills you have going over there too! πŸ™‚ Yeah, I’m thinking you’re going to be rocking this workshop! ~rl

    • Aw, thanks so much! You’re very kind. I, unfortunately, am not sure I want to include my blog though b/c I use a pseudonym. But you are really sweet to point out those things. I never even considered those! Thank you πŸ˜€

      • *smiles* I understand completely about not using your blog. I mostly just wanted to show that you definitely do have some awesome skills and I’m sure you’ll uncover more during this workshop. It’s all in how we look at things. And, I know lots of us have a difficult time seeing the worth in our own endeavors. πŸ˜€

      • Thank you rl! That means a lot to me. I find it difficult to say I am good at something w/o adding that I’m not the best and lots are better, etc. But I don’t tend to discredit compliments anymore. Still, acknowledging I am able to do things well and mention them is not easy. It gets conflated in my head with my mother’s narcissism. Mom bragged constantly about herself so I never liked calling attention to my abilities lest I sound like my mom! But I am getting better at being able to separate bragging/boasting from healthy pride in one’s accomplishments.
        Thanks again πŸ™‚

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