Today was my portfolio workshop where we talked about our homework assignment (answer the questions). We got our first ‘assignment’ back too we’d done for our second session. I didn’t get the feedback I hoped for; instead I felt like the comment was unsatisfying. Maybe I had expected too much. The facilitator who commented on it has not done the workshop before. She’s still getting certified so the other certified facilitator leads the workshop. They split the assignments between them and I had the inexperienced facilitator comment on mine. Now that I reflect more on it I can see I had placed too much of my hope into the feedback. The facilitators aren’t psychotherapists or psychological counsellors after all, they’re employment/career counsellors. Unfortunately, I let my disappointment affect me for the rest of the day. I wasn’t depressed but it took my mood down a notch. I’m feeling better now that I have thought about the rational explanations for why I didn’t get the comment/feedback I had anticipated.
This week’s assignment is to choose an aspect of our life and write a brief narrative (several pages). I am not sure what part of my life to hone in on. We’re also supposed to name our narrative based on the theme we go with. How to condense a segment of my life into a few pages? *Sigh* Fortunately we don’t have to have it finished for next week but it needs to be done the first copy anyway-we can revise it if we want to before the end of the workshop.
I must admit all this reflecting on our past is slightly depressing when you’ve lead a rather unhappy life like I have. But maybe I just need to refocus my attention on more of the positive aspects of my life. The trauma and negative stuff is easy to write about but it might be better to be more ‘upbeat’. So far I have written only about things I would never share in a job interview! Not a great start to a portfolio if I end up leaving most things out because they’re too personal. On the other hand I don’t like denying who I am and what sort of events have taken place in my life either. It’s not my intention to sugar coat my experiences so I can show them to prospective employers. I’d rather do the portfolio for my own development than as a prop to bring along if appropriate (for an interview). The parts where we are identifying our skills will help and I’ll use them but not the personal stuff.