Reflections on Life Thus Far

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Ant Murderer


Yes, that’s me. I murdered a large quantity of tiny black ants today because I got sick of having my kitchen overtaken by them. When there were only a few I could handle it but when they started coming by the dozens I got fed up and vacuumed them up. So I murdered them and may have created a lot of negative karma for myself. But then I decided I ought to see if I could repel them naturally without having to be a murderer (guess I ought to have done that in the first place!). Apparently cinnamon is good to repel them because they dislike the smell. I was so desperate to keep them away I covered my counter top in cinnamon! At first they kept coming but soon they discovered the cinnamon was staying so they left! WOO HOO!!! Now I feel like the worst person ever because of all the ants I killed. What a shameful person I am. My head hurts. I think I’m having remorse finally. Before I was too intent on getting rid of the ants to feel shame but I feel very ashamed now. Why couldn’t I have just used the cinnamon at the start? Why was I so annoyed at seeing so many ants crawling around my kitchen counter? It’s natural yet I chose to forget I am generally compassionate and instead went for the vacuum sucking up the tiny creatures cold heart’d-like.

Okay, that’s my confession. So much shame 😦

©Natalya, 2013.


Author: Natalya

Blogging my thoughts and feelings about mostly mental health, meditation and spirituality(non religious). Hoping to connect with other interesting people in the blogosphere. *The name is Russian and is my pseudonym.

16 thoughts on “Ant Murderer

  1. Dear,

    I am sorry you are feeling so much shame. I like to be as compassionate and non-violent as possible, but ants made me lose it too. I’m sorry that you are feeling ashamed. Good and healing thoughts to you.


    • Thank you Kate! I really feel bad because I could have just put the cinnamon down if I’d have taken 5 minutes to cool down and look it up on the internet. Thanks for understanding though 🙂

      • Sometimes natural methods work or for a short period of time, the coffee worked for me, but I had to figure out to do it with the beans instead of ground coffee, which is what I had read online. I’m all for natural methods, but for me the ants had to go and I tried unsafe methods that killed first myself. It took some time to figure out what works. With my present situation, there is nothing natural that works good, we tried it all, but I am okay with the karmic load that I might be carrying due to it. I just am working on being as good as I can in every way. I know you are too.

        Good and healing thoughts to you.


    • Thanks Kate! You’re right, I do try my best to be kind and I know you do too so I am not feeling as guilty today. How are you doing with your situation?

      • Hi,

        I am okay. It is an on-going situation. We are waiting for the second pest control treatment, hopefully this coming week, to happen. We are moving out of here at the end of May, and will continue looking for a place to live. We are doing as much fun activities as possible, bike rides, reading, tv shows we love, etc. We bought some bubbles for blowing recently, that always makes me feel happy.

        Good and healing thoughts to you.


      • Ah, that’s great you won’t have to put up with your present circumstances much longer. Will the second treatment get rid of them all? I’m glad you’ve all been keeping yourselves occupied with fun things.

      • Hi,

        No bites since before the first treatment, so that is great. Second treatment is considered necessary by everything I have read and been told. I don’t go online to read anymore since discussion with pest control guys showed me how much false information was out there and how easy it is to get ahold of it.

        I’m concerned about finding a place to live, but will keep looking and praying and thinking positive thoughts about it.

        Good and healing thoughts to you.


  2. actually, they may still be alive in your vacuum cleaner! When I lived in Florida years ago, we had a terrible ant problem. These ants would get into my laundry and eat the crotch of my underwear! lol. they ate cotton for some reason. They were fire ants and were vicious creatures. If you stood on one of their ant hills, they could swarm your foot and all sting you at once and it felt like your foot was on fire. So, not all ants are innocent 😉

    • Haha, I don’t know. I sucked them up with the crevice attachment on the hose that goes into a bag inside the vacuum. Likely they suffocated or the heat the vacuum was generating may have done them in too. I’m hoping they died quickly and didn’t linger in the bag with a bunch of dust!
      I’d hate to have fire ants! That must have been scary. How did you get rid of or avoid them? They ate your underwear (crotch)? Wow, I didn’t know ants ate cotton. The ants I have like sugar.

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