Question/discuss: A moment you felt most satisfied with your life?
There have not been many moments in my life where I felt satisfied with how my life was going. In
fact I can’t really think of any. The last year or so have been gradually improving for me in terms of my mental health but I still find it hard to feel satisfaction not knowing where I’m headed next. I have had moments where I felt contentment with my life but not exactly satisfaction. My life has improved immensely with respect to my overall health so I am satisfied in that regard.
Maybe it is the fact I am unemployed and unsure of which direction to head in relating to career or education. I’ve got a huge student loan debt hanging over me so it’s not as easy to just return to school as I wish to. Besides, it would be nice to find a job for awhile so I could pay some of my bills and possibly consider moving out. My dad is great but I am falling into a caregiver role with him that is less than enjoyable. I do all the housework and help him out generally. The only thing I don’t do is make his meals for him because he eats meat and I don’t and refuse to touch the stuff! He cooks his own meals fine anyhow. Usually I don’t mind but lately he hardly does anything because of his hip that has to be replaced. So I guess I am cranky. He doesn’t make me do any of the housework but if I don’t do it he won’t.
Anyway, apart from my crankiness from being burdened with all of the household chores I feel satisfied with myself. I’m satisfied that I have managed to make a home that used to be dirty and cluttered from my late mother who hoarded anything and everything for over a decade. When I think about how much I have accomplished in terms of decluttering and cleaning I feel VERY satisfied with myself. But that is not the same as being satisfied with one’s life.
Maybe if I consider my mental health and mood I could say I am satisfied. The last time I was depressed was in the winter from the lack of daylight. So I feel like that is something to be satisfied over. I spent most of my life depressed or anxious and these days I hardly have issues with that. Also I have returned to counselling so I can have someone to talk to. My dad helps me in this by paying the fee; I go twice a month or every second week. No, I don’t go to complain about housework! LOL