Reflections on Life Thus Far

My life. My story: Exploring mental health, spirituality, meditation & random thoughts I have

Epigenetics and family trauma A link to a short but interesting piece on epigenetics and healing trauma.



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Wayne DyerIn case anyone wants a place to go where there are trained people to help you that won’t cost anything try 7 Cups. They have self-help resources too. Just thought I’d share this resource because it might help someone. I haven’t tried it yet but may.


Happy New Year!

Okay, so I am late for the Western world but the lunar new year is February 8th so I am technically on time for that anyway! lol It’s the year of the monkey.


2016 arrived, for me, with little to report as I have been in some weird state of lethargy that left no energy for grand New Year plans. Due to the fact I hardly ever leave my house I find anytime I do go out I end up catching something. Thus, for the past month I have had an annoying bout of allergic rhinitis and sinusitis, as well as some flu like symptoms in spite of getting the ‘flu shot’.


I want to hibernate all winter like a bat.

In short, I have had no energy. Oh sure, I went out a few times (not to do groceries!) and managed to avoid sinking from Seasonal Affective Disorder into a clinical depression; but beyond that I feel as though I have done very little. My counsellor has been ‘missing in action’ since she left for some type of emergency back in July (not sure of the specifics obviously). The point is I have not seen her since the end of May 2015 (my last appointment) and think I am doing alright. It’s just the winter lack of daylight draining me along with my seeming penchant for catching colds/sinus problems every time I venture outdoors.

All I want is enough energy to do my laundry regularly and keep my home looking half-way decent. Surely, that is not too tall an order. Now that my ear and jaw are feeling less painful (sinus related) I have found a bit of energy returning to me. For awhile I wanted to pop Advil regularly but decided against it since one develops a tolerance to drugs that way.

Fortunately I don’t take it often, as I heard in the medical news regular long-term use of NSAIDs (non steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs) can lead to Alzheimer’s. Before 2010 the medical community thought it prevented or protected against Alzheimer’s. Good thing I only ever overdosed on Aspirin and Tylenol! Sorry bad joke. I last tried to commit suicide in November 2000 using Aspirin on two attempts and Tylenol on the other one. I have to wonder though about my mom because she took NSAIDs regularly for many years for arthritis and developed Alzheimer’s. She died at age 60. The only positive I read about the connection between NSAIDs and Alzheimer’s was there was some speculation it might stave off the worse symptoms of the disease for longer than would be the case without NSAIDs.

But none of this matters now because we never did an autopsy on my mom’s brain after her death. We felt she’d been through enough and never liked doctors much so decided against any postmortem; so we’ll never know if her brain could have revealed any clues or not. I like to think the NSAIDs gave her a few extra years before the worst of her symptoms set in. Either that or it was a contributing factor in her developing the disease.

©Natalya for Reflections On Life Thus Far, 2016.




Nearly A Year Gone

Oh my, I can’t believe I have been MIA (missing in action) for a year and a day! It’s a wonder any of you are left following my blog since I haven’t updated you with anything. But I just didn’t feel like writing. You maybe know how it is when you just get tired of something and have to be away from it to appreciate it again, well it’s like that.

There have been other reasons too, primarily I started to feel phony using a pseudonym to hide behind when I blog. But I thought about it and so far don’t feel comfortable ‘outing myself’ totally to anyone who may read this. So I continue as ‘Natalya’ for the time being anyway. Maybe in the future I’ll decide I have nothing to lose being an ‘open book’ online but not yet. It takes a lot for me to share myself not knowing who will read my words.

A lot has happened in some ways but in other ways things seem much the same to the casual observer. I am still me but something has shifted and I can never go back.

Thank you for being here and reading.

©Natalya for Reflections on Life Thus Far,2015.


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Benjamin Fry and depression

Benjamin Fry and depression.

Great post on dealing with trauma even though the title doesn’t say so.

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Day 18 of 30 Day Challenge

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Question/discuss: A book you could read over and over again and never get sick of?

This one took me awhile to think about because lots of books are wonderful enough to read a few times but I have read few that I could read countless times and not be sick of. So the book I think of when asked this question is The Kiersey Temperament Sorter Please Understand Me II. It’s more of a reference kind of book but I get sick of fiction if I read it too many times. If you enjoy Myers Briggs then you might enjoy this one because it’s based on it. Kiersey does something unique with their temperament sorter by grouping types and giving them descriptive names. There’s also a test in the front of the book if you aren’t sure of what type you are. You still get the 16 types Myers Briggs has but they are given more descriptive names for each type and the one of four groups they are in. So an INFP is a Healer type in the Idealist group. Or the ENTP is an Inventor type in the Rational group. There are 14 more types and the other two groups are the Artisans and Guardians. Idealists (INFP, INFJ, ENFJ, ENFP) are intuitive feeling; Rationals (INTJ, INTP, ENTJ, ENTP) are intuitive thinking; Artisans (ISTP, ISFP, ESFP, ESTP) are sensing perceiving; Guardians (ISFJ, ISTJ, ESFJ, ESTJ) are sensing judging.

As you may have guessed I enjoy personality typology and the like. 🙂

©Natalya, 2013.