Reflections on Life Thus Far

My life. My story: Exploring mental health, spirituality, meditation & random thoughts I have


Happy Friday

Happy Furry Friday, folks!

Happy Furry Friday, folks! (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Woo hoo, it’s sunny outside and the snow melted that had fallen last night so no shoveling necessary! It’s days like these I soak up because we don’t have that many. I’ve got a few things to do but would rather sit listening to meditation music and let the sun filter through my blinds. Besides, I work better at the last minute! My portfolio homework can wait 😀

How is your Friday going? I hope it’s sunny where you are or whatever weather it is you like best 🙂

Natalya, 2013.



Feng Shui Your Home

Feng shui Luopan compass

Feng shui Luopan compass (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I’ll assume you all know what I mean by Feng Shui but in case you don’t it’s basically setting up your home in a way conducive to positive energy flow. You place your furniture strategically for good energy to enter your home. I’ve had a book on the topic of dealing with clutter in a Feng Shui method for years but have never done much with it. Now I feel like I should make an effort you know to arrange my stuff for maximum potential.

The whole thing is kind of daunting so I’m just going to deal with my computer room that I use most (for blogging) and see how it goes. Anyone Feng Shui their home before? If I had lots of money I’d hire an expert to do it for me but I think I can figure it out for myself. I’m not sure if I should have my desk with computer in the area of creativity and projects or prosperity, abundance and fortunate blessings. Or maybe I should place it in the space for knowledge and wisdom. This is probably covered somewhere in the book but me being the lazy (efficient) person I am, I avoid bogging myself down with unnecessary information. Ah heck, maybe I’ll scan the index or something.

Well I got side tracked and ended up weeding out a pile of books from my larger bookcase (I have two). So that feels good but I never got to anything else because just weeding books is hard for me! I get attached to them but the ones I took out are books I didn’t feel I needed anymore. As a sentimental slob I hang onto things most would chuck in the bin but I struggle with guilt, guilt over tossing something someone gave me; especially when it was well thought out and suited me. Then there are the countless journals and diaries I kept that I know I would be better off without but I hate the thought of throwing them out. What am I supposed to do with them? I’ll be shredding all weekend! Call me paranoid but nobody’s going to be able to read my old journals. Good thing I have a fairly good shredder.

This Feng Shui stuff might take me longer than I thought. Apparently you have to clear your clutter first to help with the proper flow of energy. Crap! I’ll be all year with my things. Well maybe not all year but certainly a few weeks anyway.

What do you think about Feng Shui?

©Natalya, 2013.


Channeling Your Spirit Guides

Alright, so I admit this is not for everyone. Some of you may think I’ve lost my marbles but I believe in this stuff! So I want to share it with you. There was a link I posted yesterday that will be the same as this one but instead of aura colours, you get channeling guides! Even if you aren’t into spiritual stuff like I’m sharing you may find it interesting or entertaining anyway 🙂 Visit Sacred Haven’s website to read about how to channel your spirit guides, they are there to help!

Not a spirit guide but I didn't really know what they look like so chose an angel. I haven't actually 'seen' my spirit guide(s) so I'm using my imagination here.

Not a spirit guide but I didn’t really know what they look like so chose an angel. I haven’t actually ‘seen’ my spirit guide(s) so I’m using my imagination here.


Awareness With an Aw!


Awareness With an Aw!

Very cute mouse/mole? with Thich Nhat Hanh quote 🙂 Picture is from facebook page “Effortless Peace”.


What Makes You Happy?

I was just wondering what everyone does to stay happy or raise their mood if they’re down? It’s a good idea to make a list(while you’re in a good mood)

A baby pig! (piglet)

A baby pig! (piglet)

of things you can easily do when feeling down so you’ll be able to do them and feel better. One thing I find never fails to put a smile on my face and raise the mood I’m in are pictures of baby animals or super cute animals. Anything adorable and ‘squee’ inducing makes me happy. Pinterest is a great way to find pictures you like and make an online scrapbook sort of thing. Pinterest calls them ‘boards’. So when I’m trying to feel better I look at the pictures I’ve pinned to my boards and enjoy adding new ones. Another thing I do is paint my nails a fun colour. In fact I think I’ll list some things here and you can add what you do in the comment section if you wish to.

  1. Look at baby animals on Pinterest or Google
  2. Paint my nails a fun colour
  3. Have a cup of fresh coffee or tea
  4. Read uplifting blogs
  5. Play a silly game on facebook like Pet City
  6. Clean a small area so I feel a sense of accomplishment
  7. Take a shower or bubble bath(though I hardly ever have baths!)
  8. Journal out my negative feelings I don’t want to share with anyone

    English: baby guinea pigs in a tea cup

    English: baby guinea pigs in a tea cup (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

  9. Meditate for 30 or more minutes with incense I enjoy
  10. Listen to music designed to heal such as meditation music
  11. Go outside for some ‘fresh’ air
  12. Do yoga that’s fairly easy and focuses on breathing more than sweating!
  13. Watch a funny t.v. show or movie

There’s my short list. I could think of more but will leave it at those activities. So what do you do to improve your mood? I am not talking about clinical grade depression but your average ‘blues’. Just some stuff you can easily do on your own without much effort.

©Reflectionsonlifethusfar, 2012.


Personality Variations as Seen Through the Lens of Soul Level/Type

I’ve been read a book called The Instruction: Living the Life Your Soul Intended by Ainslie MacLeodthat

Cover of "The Instruction: Living the Lif...

Cover via Amazon

details how our soul age influences our personalities in this life. The author goes over different fears associated with different soul ages and types, as well as various ‘missions’ or lessons. It’s a unique way of viewing the people in your life-including yourself, as it addresses variances between people in a way that hopefully engenders compassion from the reader.

Certainly, for myself, I found that I was having lots of ‘aha’ moments where people’s previous irksome behaviours seemed to now be “forgivable”. No longer can I think of myself as being superior or inferior to others. Instead, I look at people through this new ‘lens of awareness’, if you like, and understand better why what annoyed me before about people doesn’t so much now.

It’s hard to be annoyed by someone if you know they can’t help it!  Of course I still get annoyed but it doesn’t last when I remind myself that I am no better because I have a soul age “past all that nonsense”; as I was once in their shoes too. If I view everyone through this enlarging lens it allows me to have easier access to compassion. I find myself listening to the news or reading something and the people involved correspond predictably to their soul age/level in their actions and beliefs.

It helped me to understand why some people think acts of violence, including war, are acceptable; whilst to others, including myself, it’s abhorrent. So I’m not judging people so much now thinking in some sort of smug way that I’m enlightened, whereas war mongers and proponents of violence are neanderthals. I guess I’ve given up my throne of moral and ethical superiority and decided I can have my views but am no better or worse for them.

What are the soul ages or levels? you must be wondering by now. Well they go from level one to level ten. The level one souls are the youngest and level ten the oldest. Everyone else is in between somewhere. This isn’t something scientifically verifiable so any skeptics who absolutely require evidence for everything in order to believe won’t be pleased. However, if you’re open minded and interested I’ll share the descriptions here (my descriptions are very brief so I don’t advise trying to figure your type out with any seriousness until you’ve read the book).

Young souls correspond to level one through five, whilst old soulsgo from level six to level ten. The young souls are

Younger souls have not been around forever but can still have past lives

characterized by a need for simplicity which comes through clearest at level one when they’re still new to being human. Levels two, three and four want to belong socially and are concerned with fitting in, not standing out too much and supporting the status quo. Acceptance of violence being normal and unavoidable are strongest when one’s soul is still young. By level five you find people being very exciting and dynamic wanting to push forward with everything. You can thank level five souls for new forms of transportation and “discovery” of “new” territory and lands. Many political rulers are also level five souls, as they enjoy holding power. Desire for keeping up with others will be strongest when one is still a young soul-perhaps not materially but in values. Race, gender and class are also most likely to cause problems at the young soul levels. A fear of death is also strongest in young souls.

By level six the soul enters into the old category. Level six, seven and eight souls start seeing through the illusion of materialism and physical world preoccupations. Starting at level six there is a great need for introspection but uncertainty about where to find happiness. Thank level sixes for trade unions and cooperatives because they value what’s best for the community instead of only themselves. Level seven and eight are inventors, innovators and highly creative and curious. Many of the world’s great artists and inventors belong to level seven and eight souls. Environmentalists also belong to these levels, as they become concerned for the future of the planet. By level nine and ten you’re nearing the end of your journey in human form so illusions fall away more readily and souls of these levels will want to tie up any unfinished business from previous lifetimes, including addictions, phobias and any issue that’s been clinging on for the ride.Self absorption can become a problem at level nine when resolving issues becomes a preoccupation; however level tens are much less self absorbed and try to contribute to society and live quiet lives.

In general, old souls will not be especially caught up in materialism and wanting fame and glory, nor will they be

I’ve been around for a LONG time!

religious or afraid of death. Many will be spiritual though and express their beliefs at an individual level or in smaller groups of like minded folk. Unconventional career choices and an inability to fit in tend to crop up in older souls too. Race, gender and class tend, in general, not to be concerns for older souls.

To sum up, the descriptions are as follows (copied word for word from the book):

  • Level 1: isolation, apprehension, simplicity and naivety
  • Level 2: fundamentalism, nationalism, conservatism, and discrimination
  • Level 3: church, community, conservatism and conformity
  • Level 4: religion, aspiration, morality, conservatism
  • Level 5: ambition, materialism, power and mainstream views
  • Level 6: unity, social justice, drama, and self-questioning
  • Level 7: complexity, curiosity, creativity and intensity
  • Level 8: sophistication, liberalism, environmentalism, and activism
  • Level 9: spirituality, self-improvement, healing and idealism
  • Level 10: altruism, connection, eccentricity and inertia.

After you’ve figured out what soul level you are you can find out what type you are. This is descriptive telling you what

Woman sitting with her dog

focus and traits are associated with your soul type. I shall give you the short version so if you’re interested I encourage you read The Instruction: Living the Life your Soul Intended. It’s an enjoyable read with no attacks on any particular type. Young souls and old souls are equal just different. Same goes for your soul type and mission (soul mission can be read about in the book).

Soul Type
Dedication, stoicism
Empathy, loyalty
Erudition, eloquence
Restraint, rationality
Sensitivity, idealism
Passion, playfulness
Determination, practicality
Charisma, wisdom
Compassion, spirituality
Inspiration, love

To determine which soul type you are look for the one that resonates strongest with you at an intuitive or gut level. Then look for your second strongest to determine your primary influence. Your secondary influence is your third strongest type.

There are ten missions too that further define how you will present in this world. I won’t go through the descriptions but will list what the missions are. You have a primary and secondary mission. The strongest is your primary mission. If you’re at all interested in what I’ve written I’d encourage you to read the book! 🙂

What’s your soul’s mission?

  • Change
  • Exploration
  • Examination
  • Flow
  • Control
  • Connection
  • Reliance
  • Healing
  • Avoidance
  • Love

©Reflectionsonlifethusfar, 2012.


What It’s Like to Have Three Near-Death Experiences

I have to share this because it reminded me so much of my 3 NDE I had-all at the age of 18. Being an Atheist from childhood I had no frame of reference in my belief system to consider my experiences as having anything to do with “God”. To me, God means a Universal Source, rather than a man with a white beard in the sky. Incidentally, I didn’t see “God” as a person during my suicide attempts, nor white pearly gates. Unsurprisingly, or perhaps surprisingly, I was even more convinced there was nothing beyond this life. Well fast forward a few years and an interesting thing had happened to me. Suddenly I was receiving messages before sleep that were full of worldly wisdom. No, I’m quite sure I wasn’t schizophrenic or psychotic at the time. It happened regularly before falling asleep, these transmissions of information to my brain. Everything transmitted to me was about the universal nature of our consciousness and other pearls of wisdom. You can be certain I kept my mouth shut on this as I didn’t fancy being locked up in a psych ward or on anti-psychotics. Anyhow, to make a long story short I went from being an Atheist to Agnostic, then finally Buddhist(Zen mainly). I don’t share my story often because I do have a fear of being medicated for my beliefs. Perhaps I am worrying over nothing but the experiences I had could very well be misconstrued to fit me into a state of pathology. Hopefully you don’t all think I’m totally ‘off my rocker’ now!

©Reflectionsonlifethusfar, 2012.


See: (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

8 Limbs of Yoga: A Brief Overview

The abbreviated version of 8 limbs of yoga for those of us too impatient to read in-depth background on this important aspect of yoga-it’s not just for exercise, Westerners! (I favour the spiritual side but need to practice more of the physical too).